Monday, July 03, 2006

well.........
i was jus wonderin, as to y does it feel BAD to be left out ? i mean u r left out of something for some valid reason for the better result / efficient working of a thing & still one feels bad........ y? is it because our ego is crushed or maybe jus that we consider ourselves to be the best for the job ? maybe it is jus one of the many problems mankind has - considering oneself to be the best for the paritcular job. maybe we make up our mind to believe that we are the most suited for a job. maybe NOT , coZ sometimes u know as to that the other person is in fact more capable of doing that "thing". or maybe we make it a point of jouissance or instant gratification. & thats why maybe it hurts when some1 tells u that u can NOT have that. & if this is true then, maybe it is also the reason it hurts when you make an elaborate plan( of having fun with friends, of workin & achieving something, of movies, dinner etc ) & it really depresses one, when the plan has to be crapped out coZ of some reason. but then, when u think of it, when u r left out it hurts coZ ur PLAN getrs crapped, as in one thinks some stuff & plans out somethin when one eXpects to be part of somethin. so does it mean we should STOP plannin ? or jus give it less importance in life ? or maybe jus let things be ? how does it make any difference when one feels low ? what is feeling low anyways ? i mean how do u eXplain the feelin of sinkin in ur heart, when one does nt gets what one wants....... when u dont feel like doin anythin & yet u r restless like hell ..........
....................................................(maybe will talk bout it neXt time round)

i dunno !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!