Thursday, August 09, 2007

how many times have u felt that u could go back n change something ?????
how many times does one feel that one could go back to that person n eXplain it to him/her... to spend those few moments more with that person.... how many times does one feel as if one could make the other person understand... to maybe change the things from the way they are... maybe NOT change the course of actions but to be able to smile back at that person s thought... how many time do we wish we NOT have regrets...

should we have regrets at all???? well, i DONT think so... one does the best possible thing acc to the best knowledge one has at that particular moment.... so it could be possibly the best decision one could have taken at that particular time... though while takin the decision one has many doubts & thinks of all the other things that can be done & till the last moment (& later) thinks that what one is doin is NOT right.... but then what is right ??????? what is wrong?????? well, all subjective.... NOTHiN i want to ponder into right NOW... the point is despite all this do we really take the decision which we think is most right... what is that stops us from doin so, if that is NOT the case????

& y in retrospect, one believes to be able to see things more clearly ????? jus coZ we can see the results ????? well, in blind chance (by kieslowski) the filmmaker has clearly and very truly (for me) shown that what ever one does, we canNOT be taking the best decision... in the film the protagonist by the matter of luck n fate ends up with three diff results... one is led to think as to which one is the better than the other... but in the end, NONE has a so called "happy ending"... but hey y the FUCK did i digress into it.... i can go on n on bout the film... but the point i think has already been made...

but even with this knowledge do we stop regretting???? do I wish to go back n change thing ?????? or maybe i jus sulk bout it.... things happen... could we have helped it ????? i think so... but what can one do NOW ?????

"the past is NO more" - Augustine (i think)

but is it ??????? the past affects the present.... or presents it self on to you in the present... thus changing the present & the yet to be ( the future)...

hmmmm

but then what does one do ????? let things be ????? where was i ???? what was i talkin bout???? what was goin on in my head ????? it is the past..... so it is NO more???????? or is it even more there, NOW that i try to retrospect......

i dunno where this thing is goin....
lets get it back on track...

some ppl told me one should NOT regret coZ one caNT do anything bout it... but i reject that thing completely coZ if one stops thinkin bout stuff one cant do anythin bout.... then at least my life would almost be redundant... one takes idealogical stands on stuff small n big, on stuff on which it makes NO diff... so should we stop taking those decisions????? i DONT think so....

but the first argument, i think still holds good in my head... that one takes the best possible decision at the time... "best" again is relative.... many people jus like to regret... "agar aisa hota to vaisa hota " kinds.... hypothetic... again somethin i reject....

but we can NOT deny that we regret.... maybe very little, maybe too much, maybe jus a FLASH in the mind.... but i think we all do... there is this thing that crosses the mind for a fraction of a second...

we see a person, or something & think "y?" y does it have to be this way nd NOT the other... some of us, go ON to also think that maybe if it was the other way round, it would or would NT have worked out... some know that this had to be... one way or the other... maybe preferably NOT this way....


regret - feel sad, repentant, disappointed over (something that has happened or or has been done)