NEW ORDER OF THE WORLD or is it the old one

some people coming on a boat and putting up so many lives at stake is like mocking the whole "system" of things... whatever motives/political revolutions can NOT justify an action like this... how the fuck is it allowed that some people (just because they have guns/ammunitions) keep a country on nerves... has the human life come down to this importance... how can any "revolution" eXpect support/sympathy after an act like this and NOT just be branded as a "terrorist" organization... 

but it is NOT a one off incidence i think... look at whats happening around... the power of "might" has been used more frequently than ever before... in a more blunt fashion than ever before...  makes me wonder, we live in a world where there are "pirates" capturing ships, there are people ready to kill because they think they own the damn place, countries going into war for land capturing... a person decides that the country concept doesn't eXist and that each state people stay in their own state... a president loses in the elections and declares the elections to be too close to decide, rigs the re election and comes back on to power.... a president elect, goes back on his promise to restore the judiciary because he was put on trial by the same judiciary a few years ago...  dunno how many countries are ready to get their guns out because one country' s independence is NOT liked by the other... and all these are just incidences in the past few months... if one starts listing the long term issues and fights, it will be an endless list... 

the world it seems is on the brink of going into war... we barabaric people  have decided, whatever be, the neXt thing we do is kill each other... is it all so whimsical???

is it the new order of the world - the power of might... or is it the old one... the one with which we have been trying to run away since forever... when will it be anyway???? the "new order"... 

seems like the world in our school time books is on our faces like never before... a world where captain hook was present... where the countries were fighting for land all over... its all still so present... its all so real... however hard we pretend that it doesn't...

"the conquerer always believes in  peace, eh?"

but the real question, mind it, is :

is all this really worth it???????

today a friend pointed towards a kid who has started serving chai. she had made that kid
act in her PSA spot as a chai waala who goes in a school and all and is a comment on accessibility of education, and child labour..... she was really disappointed and was feeling weird that the kid had to finally take to serving chai...

later in the evening another of my friend was rushing off after dinner... she was rushing off to teach that same kid, she had started only yesterday and was teaching the kid the alphabets....

P.S.: the kid has already reached 'G'

one fucked up project,
one fucked up me,
and nowhere to go...

hi
as i posted on my previous blog.. have been scribbling a little lately...

didNT seem a good idea to put all in the same blog...

so a new blog - ujjwalsetloose.blogspot.com

have put some photographs by me and stuff there as of now...

see you there...

and here too ;)

hi
long long long time since i have posted something in here... have got a scratch pad lately and have been scribbling on it... that s one reason am off writing i guess...

someone asked me today as to what am i upto??? my reply surprised me - "well, going through the motions of life".... why, why would i say such things????

i crib about life, world blah blah blah blah.... so many things... quite a few of us do... as if we are all going through the "motions of life" by FORCE... is it??? NO, NOT really... why is there no kick then???

someone told me recently that happiness is in smaller things... true, very true... the concept of greater happiness is all BULL... and so is concept of being happy i guess... it is something like you can never be a 1o0% happy ever... happiness as a state of mind is myth... have written that here before aint i??? being too pessimistic, cynical??? huh!!! but doesNT it also mean that i am rejecting the concept of being 100% sad too... one can never be a 100% sad anytime too... why doesNT anyone look at that like that????? why are you always like this??? repeating the same shit over and over again????? why???? got the point... now get over it...

so is it important??? being happy or sad... i just am... NOT happy NOT sad... just going through the motions of life... huh!!! i wish.... again??? just stop it.... why do you have to go into these things... get over it man... no one s interested....

hmmmm.... why does that one phone call become important... or one meeting becomes important... to give one enthu till that time at least??? why is it important as to what am i going to do neXt... i doNT know... & i really doNT ... & maybe i doNT want to know... i have NO plan, but why do i need one... but you were NOT like this, were you??? what happened to you??? you were sharp, you were talented and all, you had at least a basic idea of what you are doing, what you are going to do... what has happened to you... why are you so lost??? were you always like this???

huh!!! i am tired... i guess... of what?? of going through the motions of life... hehehehhehehe

what???? anyway, its just that i am losing the pretense... i am losing the facade that one has to carry.... that i know where i am going, what am i doing... that s it... it is damn difficult... because, can you stop thinking about it... NO, i guess not... but then who said life s easy anyway... but yeah one thing is there.. since there is NOThing actually to look forward to, this one step has become slllllloooooooooowwwwwwwwww.... human nature i guess.... i am confused as to where should i compromise... what should be done neXt... i want somethings of a particular package, some of the others... it is the usual transition period dilemma, i guess... but wait, i am NOT there at the transition point yet, i should worry about it properly when i am there... but its NOT far too... so at least i should prepare myself to worry about it, i guess...

to tell the truth... i have NO idea of what i am doing... or what i am going to do.... i never had... i could NT say it earlier... coZ i was too scared of saying that... i doNT know what i am going to do, or what i want to do.... i am just lost in the middle of no where... but the good thing is that i know i am lost, & i doNT need to pretend other wise.... ;)